wendell here,

sigh, i've just got 1 more month to get things right. maybe everything would go smoothly maybe it wouldnt. all i tried to say this whole afternoon is that no one's at fault, its just that both parties have mistakes and fault as well. just seems that it goes one sided all the time. i do admit i'm at wrong all the time but why'd you just push all the blame onto me when i admit that? mean its like it takes two hands to clap, i just hope that we both would work as a team baby. i myself dont know will i get into trouble by typing this post, i just felt that i needed to, i'm a feeling person. i just hope that you'd get my point, i may have faults, i made mistakes, but when it comes to quarrels its not started by me alone, and what matters is finding a solution and not finding a cause of the problem. i didnt like that 1 month part, i hated it in fact, but its your decisions and i do respect it.

to me, i feel that you should least spend more time with me. yeah it may be unreasonable, may not be what you like, may not be what you wanna see. but take a look at this, todays problem was caused because you mistakened my tone, im not blaming you, but thats because we just lack understanding between one another. frankly, i can say both of us dont understand each other the way we should, i dont really know how should i approach this problem cause you'd most likely say im sticky and stuff, but i was hoping at least can we get the foundation to our relationship on the right track at least first. im not asking you to give up your freedom and stuff, its just tiny little acts like going out with me a little more often for the time being. i just hope that you do want to work this relationship and problems out just as much as i do. im not saying you dont have any enthusiasm. im trying my best to becareful of what i type in here, alright.

anyway what happens between you and your mom i won't meddle with your affairs. well, im just not really happy with the fact that your particularly close friend pinches you and stuff, it puts me off greatly. baby, its just not really comforting to know that from what you told me just normal holding arms hugs to friendly pecks, to pinching? i dont know what can i do anyway, but to me its crossing my thin line of patience, for i can only tolerate so much before i start to snap. i cant take actions cause you'd say its your friends etc... but honestly ive always respected every female friend i have and DEFINATELY doesnt involve pinching asses.

today wasnt great at all, all i wanted to remember of today was that passionate kiss you gave me in the lift. yeah i do miss it, i do miss kisses like those from you, it just seems that nowadays even getting kisses from you is rare. you in your specs, i remember just to make me melt, you'd wear them, and then purposely adjust it just the way i like it.

anyway denise, everything said here is just my opinion, i have no intention whatsoever to irritate you, anger you whatsoever. these words are what i've been thinking through the entire day. some you may or may not agree with, but ultimately i hate that 1 month thing, but its your call. i just hope that after reading what i have to say, that you'd understand me better, its not about winning, cause all i care is how we solve problems and avoid having to part. mean you may say character flaws, stuff like that, but i never believed anything can't be worked out, in other words, i will make it possible that we will work everything out, im determined to make you realise that we'd be able to work out the rest of our lives, together.


wendell.

8:52 AM